2006-10-04

Sugasm 48

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It's Been A Long Time


Sometimes real life needs to be dealt with. I am able to get online and catch up, but I will get back here and post more.

Great news - I found my favorite post mentioned on Sugasm 48!Wonderful :0 I somehow feel validated. Thank you.

To the others who link here, I thank you as well. I will get back and update this blog. I am thinking of redecorating as well. You know, new fall colours, a new theme perhaps. I must get busy and start looking around.

Sie can still do it. It has been a while, however even on the phone He has me submitting and so very wet. YummY! A hint of what is to come.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm....better circle the days on my calendar.

Ta for now

2006-09-14

Hello

~~knock knock~

I have nothing to say

2006-09-07

A session of discipline and spanking....The First

W/we had met in person but W/we spoke a lot on the phone and IM before W/We got together to take our connection to the next level. A session of discipline and spanking.

This was just over a year ago.

I liked to talk to him late at night just before going to sleep. His voice, His commands, His style intrigued me and i usually slept very well after being very aroused by Him.I so wished He could be there to tuck me in.

He was descriptive and graphic with His commands. I hooked up the web cam and it was then that i realised the extent of my submission. I had no trouble at all undressing and showing Him my body, all of it. I almost trusted Him. There was an incident which should have been a sign, but i chose to ignore it as He had so may good qualities. I wasn't sure of the difference between Masters, Doms, Tops. He may have called Himself a Master, but i see now he was more a Top with Dom tendencies.

I digress.

The plan was to meet for dinner. My instructions were clear with regard to my dress and behaviours. Denim skirt, sheer panties, pretty, cute top..and completely soft smooth all over. ;)

We chatted, ate, enjoyed some after dinner beverages and He decided it was time. i assumed the position as He sat on the edge of the bed. Hands behind my head, fingers interlaced, breasts up and put and legs apart. He explored all of me as He had promised. My hair, ears, the back of my neck and even my toes. As He started to remove my skirt, He began to run his hands over my waist and tummy. His hands were demanding and probing as He ran his hands between my legs. He was clearly pleased with my freshly, completely waxed pussy. I was to give him a detailed step by step description of the process. I had Sir intrigued.

I was very wet.

I remained in position as Sir slid my panties down to my knees and raised my top above my breasts. He liked the ritual of pulling panties down and i found that to be highly erotic. He continued the inspection, under my breasts, my nipples and as i turned around and bent over, between my cheek. I was blushing like mad, but Sir told me that naughty girls like myself needed to be examined and humiliated like this so i could fully appreciate my submission.

Sir pinched and probed and gave me a thorough examining of my freshly waxed pussy and between my cheeks.. (I am not hairy much at all but they do everything for that overall freshness)He was very pleased but ran His fingers all around my labia to be sure there wasn't even one little hair.

Sir has me bend over, lean against the wall, spread my legs further. Then He stood and started to give me the most delicious hand spanking. It hurt, it stung and it was delicious. I became wetter and pulled me over His knee.

Smack, smack smack..for a long while. I lost count around 50 as my bottom was now stinging like mad. He had me remove my panties and spread wider so He could spank my thighs, inner thighs and against my pussy.

The damn hairbrush! I had left it on the nightstand (I said i was new to this).Sir proceeded to paddle my ass and thighs. I squirmed and wiggled and He was forced to hold my hands and put His foot over my legs. I had been warned about being still or else.

Well or else happened.

Sir had me stand in the corner, I hate cornertime. My top pulled up over my sore nipples and no panties, just little socks. Did i say i hate cornertime.

Sir had me back across the bed without my top. I was on my hands and knees and He used the paddle some more them pulled out the belt. Did i say that i find leather to be yummy.

The burn. I drifted and was soaked. He alternated between his hand, still my fave, the dreaded hairbrush and the yummy leather belt. I know i was drifting.

he used the clamps on my nipples. Ouch, ow ow ow Ow. The pain went right to my clit.
I had a clit clip (quite pretty with a couple of beads on it ;)he was trying to use. Since I have an innie clit ;), i needed a bit more arousal to get her out and ready to be clip.

Sir managed to get several swats in on my pussy, a naughty pussy that needs to be spanked. I had to fight so hard to stop from cummng until He gave permission. But he spanked as I spread my legs further i felt the air on my clit and he spanked my clittie until it ached and i could barely stand it.

he took my little flogger and my vibe and put it inside me. He then used the little flogger on my nipples and pussy as the vibe drove me wild.

i was allowed to come. I was spent, exhausted and glowing. My butt was fire engine red and my thighs were close. My pussy was soft and slightly swollen.

I drifted in his arms.

This was the first real discipline session and spanking.

There were many more to come. He had an assortment of implements that W/we needed to use. The flogger, the dreaded crop and W/we still had to master the clit clip.

2006-09-02

I WANT and NEED to be spanked


It has been a few days and I will get to blogging my thoughts, feelngs and share my limited, but very hot experiences. The weather is changing and we are slowly getting back into our routines.

It has been a while and I am feeling the need. I mean REALLY wanting and NEEDING to be spanked. I want a meaningful, no holds barred spanking. It must be the release I need.

In the meantime, I saw these in a nautical themed store this week ;)

2006-08-27

late Saturday/Early Sunday

It's been a while, a looooong while, and I have a very nice, soft, smooth, lickable, nibbleable, spankable butt..that is very very pale.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
I just love these pics. I get very fuzzy, warm thoughts/



A girl can dream can't she?

I have these from a snag site. I do not claim them as my own. If they are yours please email me. Tks

2006-08-24

The Sex Show with Sir

We first chatted online and clicked. His style and manner was extremely seductive and i was drawn to his manner. W/we moved O/our chats to the phone. I recall our first chat, it was almost 6 hours and He had me orgasming at least 3 separate times by words alone. I was one smitten kitten for sure. I lay on the bed, naked, legs spread and following His direction. It was subbie bliss. I was anxious to learn more

We had spoken about submissives, slaves and His needs and wishes. He told me about His experiences as a Top and Spanker as well as a Dom. He was fascinated by the Gorean lifestyle, which i found over the top. A mature, sexy Dom who could teach me the fine art of submission, and keep my bottom rosy would work for me. I wanted to be a well spanked woman and submit to Him.


W/we met at a Sex and Lifestyle Show in the city. My new Friend came up to me, heldout His arm for me to hold, smiled at me and we started our tour. the first exhibit was for waxing...everything ;) i smiled as i am waxed, completely, and He knew it. The event was was large, popular and well promoted in the papers as a way to spice up your love life. He had told me what to wear...a denim skirt, knee socks (knee socks?? so i rushed out to buy some), very sheer, tight panties, a sweater with buttons , a half bra that was sheer and lacy that accentuated my breasts and also nipple clamps, OUCH!

As W/we made our way around the exhibits, i began to relax and feel comfortable with Him. There was a share of laughs and giggles at some of the sights. The sex shops, northbound Leather, hedonism trips and time shares (time shares??!!)

It was the BDSM/dungeon area that W/e kept coming back to. There were a number of clubs in the area and they shared their websites. There were Dommes dressed in full Domme-ish outfits, with their nips covered ny their business cards ;) What surprised me the most was that these were regualar people....different ages and sizes. They were in skimpy outfits with a lot of flesh showing!!which made me feel better. I am not a large plus person, but i carry a few *ahem* extra pounds and am very self conscious. I have great breasts, butt and legs but about the tummy!

We looked at the crops and canes, He liked to flick them to test the whippiness. I actually got excited at the thought of feeling a crop or flogger across my bottom...and well across other places too. I did see some rattan canes!! Yikes.....they still scare me. he pointed out the effectiveness and advantages of the different types of canes. I got a bit 'damp' at the thought.

We saw a St Andrews cross in use with a violet wand. There was a woman in her panties only, with her hands tied over her head on a frame, being lightly flogged and another bent over a spanking bench. That was the one that had me wishing, I was getting wetter and He slipped His hand under my skirt to check my very wet pussy. I blushed, became skittish and at the same time pressed myself into His hand. He threatened to sign me up to be flogged unless I behaved. Oh oh.

I found it to be very exciting and a beginning.

W/we moved on to the "stripper" lessons, basically how to remove your clothes and move your body in very suggestive moves. He has me practice the hip rotation and thrusting against Him! yes! I passed my first test ;) An A i would give myself.

Then we found a quiet, out of the way corner to have a break, something to drink and a chat. He moved a chair beside Him and patted the seat for me to sit close, very close so His hand could run along my thigh under my skirt. I was already instructed before hand that, all being well, i was to sit with my knees parted, and to sit up straight. Shoulders back and breasts out so He could admire and check out my 'form' and to see if i had complued with His directions.

He had brushed against my breasts earlier and could feel the outline of the clamps I knew that He was pleased with everything i had dome so far. it was just a metter of time before i would feel His hand, the paddle and belt across my bottom. I felt hist his fingers lightly flick back and forth along my thighs. I sat quietly, holding my breath and slightly shvering. I was clearly aroused and would have pretty much done whatever He requested right ther and then.

Sir was a gentleman. He was pleased with me thus far.

I just knew it would be happening soon.

2006-08-22

“I do not want to be the leader.............

The quote

“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”

http://www.anaisnin.com/home.html

Ramblings on a beautiful August morning


I have known for a long time that I had submissive tendencies although I don't think I could have defined it as such. I recall reading classic erotica with authors such as 'Anonymous' ;) that I found in the bookstore. I read Fanny Hill, A Man and a Maid, Anais Nin as well as The Story of O.

I was fascinated and it stirred deep inside me. But oh how to find someone who shared those interests? One boyfriend playfully spanked me once..but it was silly and awkward and he was not interested in it.

A year ago I was online - so many sites - so many creeps and players. I chatted on a chat line with a very nice gentleman who was into spanking and sometimes played on a spanking chat site. I checked it out and connected with a very nice Dom. We spoke for hours, IM'd, play 'scened' online....so i met Him several times. He was truly a very nice man, a gentleman and decided to teach me about the lifestyle. He sounded so knowlegeable and experienced but there were chinks in his armour. he led me to believe he was a Gorean master (which was too intense for me) but I honestly think He was just a nice man who had gone no further than spankings in real life.

He was a Dom to me, not MY Dom, but a Dom and we played a bit and he introduced me to my first real spanking. However, as I said there was a chink in the armour and He got into some silly nonsence. We had a spat and I told him that He was pouting!! Yikes.

Ultimately, I decided he was being very silly and immature and it was simply not worth my time to even persue the friendship any further. I would not go so far as to call him a McDon...but there were serious gaps in his stories/tales and he lost credibility with me.

Time to move on....I did meet and am still friends with a couple of Dom types. Perhaps we will connect and play sometime, perhaps not.

I will post back here the details of my first play seion with Him....in spite of the failed friendship, we did have fun and it was a very erotic time. Bliss.

2006-08-21

A Long Awaited Erotic Very Sexy Spanking Session....Finally Con't

He had the pillows in the middle of the bed and nodded to me to lay across them. i lay across the pillows, with my bottom high, my arms in front of me, wrists crossed and my legs straight out. i rest my face against the extra pillow, i was in positon for him like a good little sub. This was the ultimate submissive position, everything was there for Him and he could take abd do as He pleased.

My bottom and pussy were exposed for His use and pleasure - i was anxious and apprehensive yet very eager. it was my pleasure to give Him that. "lizzie, spread those legs wide" He ordered. i obeyed and then lay still waiting, anticipating.

i heard the clasp of his belt unbuckle and the belt being drawn through the lops on his jeans. He lay the belt across me and gently ran it over my bottom, legs and back. John leaned forward to check. Always checking to see just how wet his little sub was for Him. All of a sudden i felt the burn, the sting and the ache. The flash seared through my body going straight for my clit. i gasped, i moaned, i jerked my head up. "Oohhhhhhhh ouch!' The long lingering burn went through my entire body. my pussy was soaked and my clit hardened. He struck again, and again.....Like a good subbie, i took 12 of His best and although it took my breath away, i took them well. my body was on fire, my bottom was burning and i was lost in the pain and the pleasure.

The pain was delicious. He lay the belt across my back walked to my feet and pulled my legs further apart. John knelt beside me and gently stroked my body. i felt the warmth and tenderness of his hands and i was more excited. i felt his mouth on my neck, across my shoulders and my back, all over my body. He nibbled, He touched, He kissed and HE soothed me.

But there was more! He reached for his strap, a thick leather well used strap. Whackkkkkkk! ouch! The burn, the pain, the glow..i felt the burn spreading and my pussy was drenched. i was soooo ready. He gave me several with the strap. i lost count overall....however there must have been well over 200 assorted spanks - hand, paddle, belt and strap...plus a few more hand smacks thrown in for good measure. my bottom was fire engine red.

After W/we cuddled for a while John spread my legs and i could feel His probing between my cheeks. i felt the lube and the small vibrator he had bought. "Relax lizzie". He spoke softly to me and calmed me down.

This was new to me and i was nervous but i was enjoying the feelings. He played, spread, probed and almost brought me to orgasm a few times....but stopped just short. i felt the thrusting and the intensity building.John had me roll on my back. He wanted to inspect me further and see how i was and how aroused i had become.He stood over me and i was putty in His hands. he order me to spread my legs further apart as He continued His inspection of me, John spanked my breasts, my thighs and my pussy several more times but i was not allowed to orgasm. i was ready to explode. He spread me apart again to see just how aroused i was. He dipped his fingers inside me. i was soaked! i looked at Him and begged him to "Fuck me please "i was behaving like the little horny tramp He has just disciplined me for. i was sure to pleasure him and He told me i had to do it right or else i would be spanked more. Of course i did an almost good job ;), knowing what was to come.

i was flipped back over on my tummy, bottom high, legs spread as he continued to use me for His pleasure. he spanked my sore bottom and thighs a few more times, then he used to vibrator again. it felt good, yet i felt dirty for enjoying it so much. i gasped as he took a dildo and used it on me as well. he plunged and thrust both toys inside me. i was ready to explode. i had never been penetrated in both places at once. i was in exctasy and agony as i begged, i moaned and He gave me permission to orgasm.i bucked, i moaned, i purred, i almost climbed the wall literally as i came a few times.

i continued to please John orally as he lay on His back until i couldn't stand it anymore.He grabbed my head and pulled me closer, forcing his yummy this cokfurther into my mouth. i gagged, i sputtered yet i continue to lick and suck and kiss that cock of His. It was so intense that i almost couldn't stand it. I wanted more. i am greedy and i desperately wanted him deep inside me, filling me up bringing me to the edge again. i wanted Him now -long, hard and often.W/we continued to cuddle, hug caress and make love so intensely. John let me orgasm a few more times. As i lay in His arms, He continued to spank my pussy with his hand - several sharp smacks. i loved it..my pusy was dripping, my lips were puffy and with each smack my pussy became more swollen. He used His finger to repeatedly spank my clit and iner labia.. i was purring just like the horny little slut that i was. i drifted off with his big strong arms around me, His hand cupping His swollen pussy and His other hand holding His aching breasts.


Next time He told me he needed to keep me in line. i woould be getting more GGs and some maintenance punishments. He said my ass needed a good fucking and i am anxious to FINALLY surrender it to someone so sweet, kind, caring yet strict.

A Long Awaited Erotic Very Sexy Spanking Session..........Finally



"You need a spanking...now! I am on my way"

After talking about it for several months, i finally was going to be dealt with by Him. i had been spanked before and it was very nice, but the man had hurt me. John was someone i knew for a long time. i knew i wanted more from a strong man, a man who means business yet is kind and good hearted. After talking with John about my experiences, dreams, fantasies and my submissiveness for months, He said he would be right over and i was to be ready with my list.i knew Him and trusted Him, so in spite of the late or rather very early hour, i ran around tidied up, put on the extra nice sheets, fluffed myself, hopped in the bath, used the fancy bubble bath and creams that i received as a gift , fixed my hair, spirtzed myself with my favourite 'capture his attention' Chanel perfume, a hint of make up - to look all the more natural and 'flushed', chilled the wine and waited. I was in a pretty pink cotton, eyelet trimmed, demure nightgown and silky panties as per his direction.

John has a presence, a kind, sweet gentleman with a firm, strong hand and a commanding voice. W/we talked for quite some time and then He told me that this was long overdue and that i needed a spanking - "right now". He does not take no or stalling tactics at all and only adds more spanks to the list. (my list was just way too long)He me towards the bedroom, hands firmly rubbing my bottom. John began to gently scold me telling me how naughty i had been and how i was long overdue. He held me firmly, putting his arm around my shoulders and immediately smacked me with 5 or 6 very hard swats on my bottom.

"Ouch Ouch OUCH!" i held on to him tight.. Oh my! i was quivering and flushed already very nervously anticipating what was coming next. It didn't stop and i lost track of the count. He continued to scold me and lifted my nightgown over my hips, telling me to lean forward as he continued the smacks. I felt the pain, the sting and the heat going right though my body.

"What are you being spanked for lizzie" he said.

"i 've fibbed and have been playing online' i squeaked. my throat was already dry and i was shaking not fully knowing what was to come.He sat down on the bed and i sood in front of Him with my hands clasped behind my head and my legs slighty apart. "Naughty girls need to be spanked and spanked hard! You lizzie, have been very naughty and have behaving like a horny little tramp" . "Lift off that nightgown NOW!

"i shyly lifted my nightgown over my head as He watched looking at me intently. He has warned me that only a tramp would be so slutty as to become aroused while being disciplined and he would be checking. i blushed knowing that my body would betray me. my nipples were hard and i felt the dampness bewteen my legs.

"Over my knee right now!" i lay across his knee and made sure to have my bottom up and positoned exactly as He wanted it. or else! John stroked my bottom and thighs and gently ran His hands and fingers over me. He was quite concerned and wanted to check to be sure i was fine. Then, He began to smack my bottom. i felt the sting and burn on both cheeks, across the middle and along my thighs. OMG!! The heat was searing and going through me. i squirmed, i wriggled, i gasped, I cried out. "Ouch ouch ouch ouch!!!: That didn't deter him. i put my hands back there and he continued holding my hands tightly behind me, locking my kicking legs with his legs and his big strong hands contined to decorate my bottom with more colour. John reached between my legs and felt the telltale signs that i was incredibly aroused. He gently patted my my already swollen pussy

."Remove those panties NOW" i stood up and slid them down and stepped out of them quickly, my face flushed and my hair already dishevelled. i stood in front of him with my hands behind my head, fingers interlaced between each other and spread my legs."Further apart! NOW! You know the position lizzie! " He ordered. i quickly spread my legs and he felt between my legs. i felt vulnerable and ashamed and so exposed as i could feel his eyes on my face, my breasts and my very soft and waxed, silky smooth, yet very damp pussy.John carressed my breasts, tummy, hips and arms. His hand was soft and gentle yet firm. He had the touch that made my knees buckle and made me melt. He played with my nipples, then gave them a few sharp twists.

"Ouch" i cried. This annoyed him and he gently spanked my breasts with his hands a few times each. They were very tender and responsive and again a dead give away of my arousal. He then reached between my legs and looked at me as I felt his fingers. i was ashamed, yet very aroused and wanting more.

He looked at me. "You are shameful! You are getting wetter lizzie! Only a slut gets aroused like this. Back over my knee now. He ordered. i knew better than to question Him and lay across His legs. He looked at me. "Spread those legs lizzie, there is nothing you can hide from Me. "Yes Sir"

He didn't give me time, he spread my cheeks apart and began to spank inside the cheeks and across the middle. He spanked me 'there' and told me that this is what happened to naughty little sluts, they needed to be reminded that their behaviour gets them into trouble and that there is no hiding anything from them. My body was His..my breasts, pussy, bottom, mouth....all of it.

He took spanked my sore red bottom, all the inside of my cheeks, and my thighs at least another 50 times and then pulled out the paddle. "Oh John nooo." I whispered. " Young lady" he replied " who decides what happens here? "You Sir".

It stung, it was sharp and whispy and it stung like heck. i twisted and gasped and begged him to stop, but to no avail. "naughty girls don't have choices here lizzie' It wouldn't be a deterent if it didn't hurt now would it?" Several dozen swats across my bottom, thighs and a few smacks to my pussy.

i felt the heat bult up, i felt my pussy swelling, dripping, wanting more. i lost count but i was begining to feel that feeling of drifting. i clapsed the duvet and felt the burn and the sting. i felt his hands gently caressing and soothing my heated skin. He had been angry with me but I knew this Man was caring and also kind. John stopped and had me sit up.i knelt on the mat in front of him in subbie position - knees apart, hands behind my neck with fingers interlaced, head high, eyes lowered and breasts jutted out. i and looked up at him. John was smiling and pleased..He held me in His arms, looked into my eyes and kissed me. Long and deep and soulfully. It was sweet, sensual, sexual and oh so very, erotic. i greedily kissed him back, i licked his lips, suckled his tongue and ran my tongue over his teeth and around the inside of his mouth. i felt safe and cared for and had a very crimson red, hot bottom. I felt truly submissive as I knelt in front of him naked, as he sat fully clothed. i found that to be so erotic as i was so vulnerable and exposed before him.

"you have a greedy mouth lizzie, you have no shame" he looked at me. yet i continued to take his lips, mouth and tongue into mine... and we both contiued kissing, licking, nibbling and sucking each others mouths.i went to get some more water for us both. When i returned, he had piled the pillows on the bed. i stopped and he smiled and looked at me "lizzie, I didn't give you permission to get up now did I?.

Summer Breeze

I haven't been in here for so long. It has been a busy summer, pleasant, great weather but I have been overwhelmed with work and then feeling sick at times.

But I have been reading the blogs and surfing some subbie sites for DD and D/s type stories. The blog of TND has`captured my interest. I have read about his adventures and it is well written and leaves me panting. The recent announcement of his living arrangement and new life with his subs is certainly exciting, almost like following one of those afternoon television shows. S

I have written an account of a session with a very yummy Dom/Disciplinarian. It left me wanting so much more. We will resume soon..once everyone is back into regular routines.

I will cut and paste it here..in two parts.

A quick note, in this blog, since it is mine and mine alone, I will be using standard format and not worry about not-capping I, me and such.

2006-07-26

And so it goes.........

Another attempt at blogging.

I have long known of my subbie tendencies and my desire to be controlled sexually. I was able to take that step almost a year ago. Since then, I have done some reading, quality and not so quality (in other words - carp!) about BDSM/DS/DD. I believe I know my niche more DD with some D/s trown into the mix. There is such an overlap and the boundaries blur.

til later



~lizzie~